okay...my life has officially gone down the toilet. my grandmother, the person I love...loved...love... best in the world, died last wednesday. It's been coming for a while, and she didn't even look like herself in the end. i didn't even hear her speak... i missed a week of school and we haven't had the funeral yet. whatever.

i don't want to hear any more I'm sorrys. I don't want to answer the question Are you okay. I know you're sorry. No, I'm not okay. i'll get over it. I've heard sympathy untill i think i'm going to throw up. If i don't think about it, it's okay.

anyway, I'm moving now. not far, like leaving my state or anything, I just gotta get away from this house. and these people. my family is going to fall apart now... my cell phone has been shut off because we haven't paid the bill. i don't know if it's coming back. i hope it is.

i don't know when i'll be getting back on, or how often. i don't know much of anything anymore. a big thanx to aki and Yukkie for the comforting texts, by the way. i owe you my sanity.

my uncle is down, the evil one, i don't know when he's leaving. my fav cousin is gonna move, and hopefully he'll get an apartment near the one i'm gonna get. my other cousins are all leavin too. whatever.

okay, i just wanted to let ya'll know that everything sucks. love you guys, ya'll keep me goin.